See the quote above? These words has always convinced me not to be scared of leaving things behind. Very selfish words, I know. It’s like giving permissions to leave anything right away when you don’t feel good about it anymore, without considering how others feel about you leaving. But these words do have a point.
Saying “good bye” is never easy. No matter how many times I’ve been saying it in different situations and for different reasons, it’s still hard. The deeper the attachment, the harder it is to let go. But here I am, saying another goodbye, having my heart feels nothing but relieved, and just hoping for better, better things to come soon.
Kata-kata super klise dan used everywhere by everyone sampai-sampai terasa basi dan maknanya hilang. Apa sih sebenernya jadi diri sendiri itu? Diri yang mana? For all I know, setiap orang bisa memiliki lebih dari satu karakter, tergantung bersama siapa dia berada dan dalam situasi yang bagaimana.
But oddly, it feels kind of different when you’re the one who said it.”Jadi diri sendiri aja kali, Da.” Tiga bulan yang lalu, setelah cerita betapa Jakarta membuatku feels so fucking lonely, you only said “Kenapa harus bergantung sama orang lain sih.” Damn, we are social creatures and that’s why we need others, so I thought. But hey, since when I categorize myself as someone ‘social’? Lol jk.
My point is, kata-kata ini yang membuat aku sadar aku sudah mulai salah arah. Dan kemudian banting setir saat itu juga. AHA moment, they called it. I didn’t know myself back then, so I seek for it, bit by bit. And now, my life is somehow different. Not easy, but I’m getting through it. Lose some, get some. So, really, I sincerely thank you for your cliche advice. 🙂
I’ve been feeling down lately because of some reasons and, I don’t know, I’m just sad. I’m not really open when it comes to sharing my personal problem with my friends, so people always think that I’m a happy and carefree person. Whenever I met someone, most of times, they’d start with, “You look happy”, “You’re glowing”, or “What happened? Your smile makes me want to smile.” Well yeah probably I’m really good at faking smiles and hiding my misery lol.
Anyway, I found the quote above from tumblr which literally makes me smile and really brings me up, so I remade it and I think I might as well share it with everyone out there. Cheer up and radiate the good vibes, man!