Good bye.

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Remade a quote from Tumblr.

See the quote above? These words has always convinced me not to be scared of leaving things behind. Very selfish words, I know. It’s like giving permissions to leave anything right away when you don’t feel good about it anymore, without considering how others feel about you leaving. But these words do have a point.

Saying “good bye” is never easy. No matter how many times I’ve been saying it in different situations and for different reasons, it’s still hard. The deeper the attachment, the harder it is to let go. But here I am, saying another goodbye, having my heart feels nothing but relieved, and just hoping for better, better things to come soon.

 

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Change

Start somewhere.

Reading through my old diary journal makes me realize how much I’ve grown. The way I see things now is somehow different. Guess I’m pretty much older now.

Some people told me I didn’t change after years. They said I still looked the same (some said I got prettier though, lol), and my personality didn’t change much. Well, most of the people I know don’t change much either. Or maybe, I deny to look them differently, just because I don’t want them to change. Oh but who am I to judge.

One thing I learned about myself lately is, I repressed a lot. Rather than being a present-hedonistic who tries to seek pleasure in everything I do, which is me some times ago, I get more and more transcendental-futuristic. Not because I want to, but because I realized that I have to. For me, being (so-called) “spiritual” changes a lot of aspects in my life. And change is never easy, right, especially when the change is vast and fast. I know I just gotta start somewhere, rather than complaining how hard it is. I’m still trying to accept this urge to change, and of course it will be a bumpy road, but change is good.

Change for the better is good.