I’m not a fan of “new year, new me” thingy, but in this very 2018, I feel like I need to start planning for my future seriously. My life was intentionally a mess. I always have goals, I do, but right now, I know I need to make everything very specific, and make deadlines for every goals I have without rushing it. Rushing things will be something I pull aside, because I plan to be a zen monk this year. Lol jk but yes, I plan to do things zen way like I did few years ago. (Including a little more drawing as a therapy to find peace.) It won’t hurt to start doing it again, right. I wrote these highlights about zen way of life in 2014 or so and I’m just gonna share it here, just because. So yeah, have a great 2018, fellas!
See the quote above? These words has always convinced me not to be scared of leaving things behind. Very selfish words, I know. It’s like giving permissions to leave anything right away when you don’t feel good about it anymore, without considering how others feel about you leaving. But these words do have a point.
Saying “good bye” is never easy. No matter how many times I’ve been saying it in different situations and for different reasons, it’s still hard. The deeper the attachment, the harder it is to let go. But here I am, saying another goodbye, having my heart feels nothing but relieved, and just hoping for better, better things to come soon.
A lot of things changed in the last two months. I left my job and also some other important parts of my life to find another side of me, but what I found is, another side of life. If you ask me, am I happy now? I don’t know. Maybe I am, or maybe not really.
I’ve always thought that I need to be happy. That was forever my life plan, actually. I always seek for happiness, I get it from the excitement of new things, new people, new places, new experience. But then, I realize that being “at peace” is far more valuable. “Peace” isn’t something you seek. I can buy a pair of shoes to feel happy, even though it’s just pseudo-happiness. Ha. But being at peace is different, it ain’t something you can buy with money, or something that can be planned.
So, if you ask me, am I happy now? I will still answer: I don’t know. Maybe the question ain’t relevant no more. All I want now is to be constantly at peace.
Some of you may have heard about this type of art. I can proudly say that I’m one of those many artists who do zentangle a lot! I’ve done a lot of zen-arts since last year. You could check them on my instagram. Now I’m about to tell you some points about zentangle, get your pens ready! Continue reading “Let’s Do Zentangle!”→
Hello! So yeah this is my first post (beside the ‘hello world’ thingy). I suck at writing but suckin’ at something is the first step of being sorta good at something, they say. I don’t know what people usually write on their blogs so I’m kinda lost about what I should write and what theme I should choose, so I hope it’s okay to just make a quick drawing as a start! Anyway my name’s Aida, and I hope I’ll do good with this blog✌️